Now that I am in my 50's (52 to be exact) I find interesting dichotomies.
I appreciate the fact that I have evolved enough now to love being in my own skin.
I allow far less, fear, drama and stress in my life and for the most part feel wonderful inside and out But there are those days when I look at myself in the mirror and I see a mature woman looking back at me and for a moment feel sad; sad, only because I feel younger and more vibrant than at any other time in my adult life.
When I see my breasts with my headlights (vernacular for nipples) looking for night crawlers instead of looking ahead, I wonder where has the time gone.
When I look at my face and see a mustache and hair growing out of my chin I wonder why my mom didn't tell me these things may happen! eeeek! Yet inside even on these days I feel a sense of peace; peaceful because I have this deep knowing now that I am so much more than a body.
Even more strange I have come to love this body more than ever even with all the extra weight and saggy parts.
I take time with my body now, I eat fairly healthy, (although I love having an organic chocolate bar with a hot cup of tea or bag of chips every now and again) but over all I feel good inside.
I move my body as I have shared in ways that feel wonderful to me such as qigong and yoga! I love stretching and keeping my body more flexible now than in many years.
I have always been conscience of using environmentally safe personal care products but now I have fun making my own.
Recently I started making my own organic face and body cream and I lavish my whole body after a shower, mmmm this feels so yummy!! This part my mom did not tell me either but I have come to love.
An acceptance to what is.
With this acceptance though comes the profound wisdom of the importance of caring for my body, mind and spirit.
This is the gift of ageing that I have given to myself.
This is the GIFT we all need to give to ourselves no matter that age.
This is a wonderful legacy to mirror to our granddaughters so that maybe just maybe it will not take them until old age to learn.